Scaring Yourself

Boo.

Right now I am in the process of making major changes in my life. I am ready for it. I am also scared out of my mind.

I have been a stay at home mom for years, my kids are getting older, and I could provide so much more for them if I was in the actual workforce. It has been a long time, we are talking like 5 years. I am a different person then I was 5 years ago. I am a stronger person, but I’m also so disconnected.

So I am scaring myself! I am actively engaging with all the fear and hardship that is coming through during this process. Rewriting my resume, sending it out there to potential career options, screwing up. It’s not fun, it’s not easy, nothing new and different ever is.

AND I AM SO GLAD THAT I BELIEVE THAT.

Things don’t have to be fun and easy all the time. I want to work hard, I want to overcome my *stuff* I want to be the best version of myself and that requires growth. It requires courage and most importantly it requires hope. I have faith that I can better provide for my family and create a career that is fulfilling. It is bringing every insecurity to the surface and I get to face those insecurities head on.

That is a beautiful thing. Bring it on universe. I’m ready. I am ready to get uncomfortable so I can feel hopeful, and alive.

What are you doing to scare yourself this season?

 

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